Thursday, March 20, 2014

the older wisers


The sun is shining and Jeff Buckley is playing on my stereo. I am driving up to the school, like I have so many times before, and I feel at peace. The impending dénouement offered by the big news tomorrow hardly reaches me (in this moment, finally). The difficulties of those first few years of medical school currently seem so distant and resolved, as if my strivings have finally reached some mellowed fruition and now I can finally sit back and watch the events unfold.

I spent Monday afternoon with Podge (my grandfather and a retired radiologist) in Victoria going over some films on the computer, in attempt to absorb a little of his wisdom. I like hanging out with the older folk, as they have the ability to see that everything works out, all difficulties and joys alike weave seamlessly into their story (the part behind them, the life well lived, despite its bumps along the way). I can fret over my present as much as I like, but they have the experience to advise me otherwise. This or that worry of youth must seem trivial in their minds, and makes me want to call out my worries as such too. I know that life will work out, and from the other end, will probably seem richer for its diversions from our original plans.

I am truly exited about tomorrow. Ready to stop talking about it and start moving forward! Ready to start celebrating. Ready to raise my glass in full cheers. Ready or not, its almost here!

And in case anyone besides me cares, I will check back in afterwards with news…

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